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Bug is posting for us today

Hey y’all, it’s Bug here for a reprise on teenage life with anxiety. I would like to start with the disclaimer that I am writing this in math class on a notebook to be typed later, while listening to music and still doing well, if not better in class #adhd.
You may recall a post on me going to a religious summer camp, it was FSY. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  I tell you this for context on the story I am about to tell.
At the start of second semester I was in both color guard ( the people on the football field who toss flags during the marching band portion) and musical theatre. Color guard rehearsals were on Tuesdays and Thursdays 4-7pm. Musical theatre rehearsals are on Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays from 3-5 because it is a broadway show.  There was an hour of overlap that was going to be difficult to make up on each end so I had a major scheduling conflict with two performing arts that you need to be there for. I tried one day to go from musical theatre to color guard and it was really draining. I realized that I might not be able to continue doing both without becoming really anxious, or burnt out. I had already made commitments to both. The options were to quit color guard, or keep doing both. ( I’ll spare you the exact details on the pros and cons of those options). I was having lots of anxiety, and even a few breakdowns over the decision, so I decided to spend some time studying my scriptures and my study journal from FSY. The passage that allowed me to decide what to do was this passage from doctrine and covenants.  “Do not run faster or labor more than you have strength and means provided…but be diligent unto the end” (D&C 10:4). This has now become my montra of the year. But it told me that if I couldn’t handle doing both without falling apart, then I needed to slow down. So I did. I dropped color guard, and afterwards everything started hurting. Turns out that hypermobility and swinging/tossing 6ft flags don’t go well together. I was in pain from color guard and am now grateful that I quit because had I not, it probably would have caused more problems to my health. I love musical theatre, and it is really good for me. It may sound like it would be more taxing because it takes more time, but it combines many things that I love and is super fun so for me it is more energizing than taxing. I know that I was strengthened by the lord, and that I am doing what is best for me. We are now getting our house ready to sell because my grandparents can’t live alone anymore and I am even more grateful that I don’t have color guard chaos going on on top of everything else.

Bug

The music I’m listening to is epic the musical, a concept album written by Jorje Revera Herans and follows Odysseus’ journey to get home to ithaca. It is really good and I highly recommend it.